1984

Part Three, Chapter 6 โ€” Teaching Companion

George Orwell ยท Mountaineers 10th–12th

Coaching, not a script โ€” and not an answer key: every question here has more than one defensible answer.

This chapter's big question

A happy memory of his mother still comes to Winston, and he calls it false. Is anything of the old Winston left by the last line?

The tension Winston pushes away the memory of laughing over Snakes and Ladders with his mother as “a false memory”, yet weeps “Two gin-scented tears” of joy at the face on the wall: what was real he disowns, what was forced on him he embraces.

Today's focus

Notice how Winston treats each thing from his past that returns to him, and how he greets the news from Africa.

Two core ideas

  • Released and kept comfortable with gin and an empty job, Winston meets Julia once more; each admits betraying the other, and neither feels the same.
  • A happy recollection of his mother is dismissed as false, the war news turns to victory, and Winston, weeping, loves Big Brother.

The shape at a glance

It is “the lonely hour of fifteen”, and the Chestnut Tree Café is almost empty. Winston sits in his usual corner under a vast portrait of Big Brother. Waiters fill his glass with Victory Gin unasked and bring the chessboard and the Times. Since his release he has grown fatter and redder; he has money, and a well-paid job with almost nothing to do. The telescreen has grave news from the African front, where a Eurasian army is pushing south. Over a chess problem he thinks, “White always mates.” Picturing defeat, he feels layers of feeling he cannot sort. With his finger he traces 2 + 2 = 5 in the dust, and remembers Julia saying they could not get inside you. They could. He remembers meeting her by chance in the Park on a bitter March day. She has a scar, and her waist has thickened and stiffened; holding her, he thinks of a corpse he once dragged from ruins. She looks at him with dislike. Each says, “I betrayed you.” Julia says that when they threaten you with something you cannot bear, and you tell them to do it to somebody else, you mean it at the time, and afterwards you do not feel the same towards that person. He agrees. They say they must meet again; he lets a small crowd separate them and heads back to the warmth of the café. Now a voice seems to sing from the telescreen, “I sold you and you sold me”, and tears come to his eyes. Gin rules his days; twice a week he sits on a sub-committee arguing about commas. Uncalled, a memory comes: a rainy afternoon when he was a boy, his mother bringing home a cheap game of Snakes and Ladders, and the family laughing together by candlelight. He pushes it away as a false memory. A trumpet-call sounds: the bulletin reports a great victory in Africa, a sea-borne force striking the enemy’s rear, the move Winston had pictured. In his mind he runs with the cheering crowds, and the “healing change” in him happens at last. In a blissful dream he confesses everything, walks down a white-tiled corridor, and feels the bullet he has hoped for enter his brain. He gazes up at the face. “Two gin-scented tears” run down beside his nose. The book ends: “He had won the victory over himself. He loved Big Brother.”

A way in

Read the chapter in four stretches: the café and the war news, from “The Chestnut Tree was almost empty” to the sum in the dust; the Park, from “He had seen her” to the song from the telescreen; the gin, the committee and the memory of his mother, to “It was a false memory”; and the trumpet-call to the last line. As you go, keep one list: everything from Winston’s past that comes back to him unasked, and what he does with each. Keep the war’s map light; the arrows matter for what the news does to Winston. Leave open what the chapter leaves open: whether the victory is real, whether the memory is true, and what was done to Julia.

Lesson plan

Retell The student retells the chapter in order: the almost empty café and the gin poured unasked, the waiting for the bulletin, the chess problem and “White always mates”, the picture of defeat and the layers of feeling, 2 + 2 = 5 in the dust, the meeting with Julia in the frozen Park, the stiffened body, “I betrayed you”, what Julia says about meaning it, the parting, the song and the tears, the gin and the sub-committee, the Snakes and Ladders afternoon pushed away as false, the trumpet and the victory, the blissful dream of the corridor, and the last line. Look for the memory of his mother, which a hurried retelling drops on the way to the ending.

Imitate the author After copying, the student writes two short passages of their own in the same build, about a moment that changed someone. The first is two sentences: one that sets a phrase inside the clause, as “your own acts” is set, and one that turns on a colon and ends on a pair of short phrases, the second sharper than the first. The second is four sentences: a sentence about the body, a long sentence that sets a still body against a running mind and repeats a word to sharpen it, a plain sentence, and a cry with no verb.

Debate Take sides on the last written question. One side argues that something of the old Winston is left, and gathers the memory that comes “Uncalled”, its small exact details, the push it takes to be rid of it, the tears at the song, and the “But” after the last tears. The other argues that nothing of him is left, and gathers “It was a false memory”, the turn back to the chessboard, the “healing change”, “the struggle was finished”, and “He had won the victory over himself.” Each side must answer the other’s best line. Neither may say whether the memory is true, or that Winston should have been braver.

Purpose Close on the shape of the chapter. It waits for one piece of news from the first page: the music, the warning of “an important announcement at fifteen-thirty”, the false alarm when “they were merely changing the music”, and at last the trumpet. The memory of his mother comes in the last minutes of that wait, and the trumpet sounds just after he pushes it away. Ask why Orwell puts the memory there, and why the chess problem Winston started is never solved. Keep the answer to what this chapter shows.

Easier Read the chapter aloud in its four stretches. Keep the list of things from Winston’s past that come back to him, with what he does with each. Talk through the third and fifth discussion questions, then answer the last written question aloud, using the list, before writing it.

On level Talk through all five discussion questions in order, then write both written questions as a thesis, the strongest objection and a revised thesis, each with lines from the chapter.

Harder Ask for one argued essay on the word “victory” in this chapter. It names the gin, the bulletin and its “victory, victory, victory!”, and the last line, “He had won the victory over himself.” What is won, and by whom? The essay should use “cauterised”, “sinecure” and “inextricably”, and should meet the objection that the sub-committee, which works some days “almost eagerly” before “the life would go out of them”, shows a mind still alive. It must not say whether the victory is real, whether the memory is true, or that Winston is shot.

Discussion

  1. With the chess problem in front of him, Winston thinks, “White always mates.” In these problems black never wins; “it is so arranged.” What does Winston get from that thought?Character

    What it asks It asks the student to say what one thought does for Winston. A waiter brings the Times “with the page turned down at the chess problem”: “White to play and mate in two moves.” Winston looks up at the portrait of Big Brother and thinks, “with a sort of cloudy mysticism”, that white always mates: “Always, without exception, it is so arranged. In no chess problem since the beginning of the world has black ever won.” He asks himself whether it does not “symbolize the eternal, unvarying triumph of Good over Evil”, and “The huge face gazed back at him, full of calm power.” The student says what the thought gives him. It reaches toward the last question, since it shows what Winston now leans on. The card must not say whether the victory in Africa is real.

    One reading

    Rest. If the end is arranged, nothing hangs on him. He does not have to win, or choose, or hold out; he only has to wait. A game whose result is fixed is a game he cannot lose by playing badly, and after everything that has happened, that is a kind of peace.

    • Always, without exception, it is so arranged.
    • The huge face gazed back at him, full of calm power.

    Another reading

    A side to be on. The thought turns the winner into the good: if white always wins, white must be Good and black Evil. Winston looks up at the portrait as he thinks it. He is lining himself up with the side that cannot lose, and calling that side right because it wins.

    • Did it not symbolize the eternal, unvarying triumph of Good over Evil?
    • Winston looked up at the portrait of Big Brother.

    Listen for

    • Hears “cloudy mysticism”. That is the narrator’s word for the thought, not Winston’s. What does “cloudy” say about how clearly he is thinking?
    • Hears “it is so arranged”. Arranged by whom? The sentence does not say.
    • Notices that Winston never solves the problem. Later he makes “a tentative move” that is “evidently not the right move”, and at the trumpet the knight drops “with a clatter”. If white always mates, why can he not find the mate?
    • Keeps to the page: the chapter gives only the bulletin, not whether the victory happened.

    If stuck

    • What does the chess problem in the Times ask white to do?
    • What does Winston think is true of every chess problem?
    • Why might it be restful to know how a game ends before it starts?

    A strong answer A strong response says what the thought gives Winston, and argues from the chess paragraph. One reader says rest: if the end is “so arranged”, nothing hangs on him, and a fixed game is one he cannot lose by playing badly. Another says a side to be on: the thought turns the winner into “Good”, and he thinks it looking up at the portrait. The best answers weigh the narrator’s “cloudy mysticism”, notice that Winston never finds the mate himself, and do not say whether the victory is real.

  2. When Winston pictures defeat in Africa, his thoughts run all the way to “the destruction of the Party!” His feelings come in layers, and he cannot say which one is at the bottom. Which do you think it is?Inference

    What it asks It asks the student to judge what Winston feels most deeply about the war news. The telescreen warns of “an important announcement at fifteen-thirty”, and “instinct told him that it was bad news that was coming.” All day, “with little spurts of excitement, the thought of a smashing defeat in Africa had been in and out of his mind.” He pictures the enemy cutting Oceania in two: “It might mean anything: defeat, breakdown, the redivision of the world, the destruction of the Party!” Then: “An extraordinary medley of feelings – but it was not a medley, exactly; rather it was successive layers of feeling, in which one could not say which layer was undermost – struggled inside him.” The page says one could not say. The student says anyway, and argues from the page. It takes up one part of the last question: what lies underneath in Winston. The card must not read in a secret resistance the chapter does not show, and must not turn into a lesson on the map.

    One reading

    Hope. The list of what defeat “might mean” ends on the Party’s destruction, and it ends with an exclamation mark. All day the thought of defeat has come with “little spurts of excitement”, not dread. Under everything, the old wish to see the Party fall is still there, even if he would never act on it.

    • It might mean anything: defeat, breakdown, the redivision of the world, the destruction of the Party!
    • All day, with little spurts of excitement, the thought of a smashing defeat in Africa had been in and out of his mind.

    Another reading

    Loyalty, or the wish to feel it. In the same paragraph Winston plans Oceania’s rescue like a general. He asks why the enemy could not be outflanked, moves the white knight, and feels that his will is helping to make the rescue real. At the bottom is a man pulling for his own side.

    • Why had it not been possible to outflank them in some way?
    • He felt that by willing it he was bringing that other force into existence.

    Listen for

    • Hears the narrator correct himself: an “extraordinary medley of feelings – but it was not a medley, exactly”. What is the difference between a medley and layers?
    • Sets this beside an earlier flash, “not fear exactly but a sort of undifferentiated excitement”, that “flared up in him, then faded again.” Can excitement belong to both sides at once?
    • Hears the minutes before the trumpet, when “there had still been equivocation in his heart”. If he was of two minds, did one mind lose, or did both give way?
    • Keeps to the page: the question is which feeling lies lowest, not whether Winston is secretly resisting. The chapter shows no act against the Party, and the arrows on the map matter only for what they do to him.

    If stuck

    • What news is Winston waiting for?
    • What does he picture that defeat might bring?
    • When you hope for two opposite things at once, how do you tell which you want more?

    A strong answer A strong response names the layer it thinks lies lowest, and argues from the paragraph where Winston pictures defeat. One reader says hope: the list of what defeat might mean ends on the Party’s destruction, with an exclamation mark, and the thought of defeat comes with “little spurts of excitement”. Another says loyalty: in the same paragraph he plans the rescue, asks why the enemy was not outflanked, and feels his will bringing the other force into being. The best answers weigh “medley” against “layers” and the “equivocation” that remains before the trumpet, and do not claim a secret resistance the chapter does not show.

  3. With his arm round Julia’s waist, Winston remembers dragging a corpse out of ruins after a rocket bomb. Why is that the picture his mind reaches for?Inference

    What it asks It asks the student to account for one image in the Park. On “a vile, biting day in March”, Winston follows Julia into a clump of leafless shrubs and puts his arm round her waist. “She made no response whatever to the clasp of his arm; she did not even try to disengage herself.” He notices a scar across her forehead, “but that was not the change. It was that her waist had grown thicker, and, in a surprising way, had stiffened.” He remembers helping “to drag a corpse out of some ruins”, and how it seemed “more like stone than flesh. Her body felt like that.” The student says why this picture comes to him. It reaches toward the last question, since it asks what has died. The card must not say what was done to Julia; the chapter gives only her scar and her changed body.

    One reading

    Because it is true of her. Something in Julia has gone, and his hands know it before he can say it. The scar is on the surface; the stiffness goes all through her. She neither leans in nor pulls away. The woman he once held is not there to hold.

    • She made no response whatever to the clasp of his arm; she did not even try to disengage herself.
    • which made it seem more like stone than flesh

    Another reading

    Because it is true of him. The picture is his, and so is the coldness. Before he has touched her skin he thinks its texture “would be quite different”. A moment earlier the thought of lying with her made his flesh freeze with horror. What he holds feels dead because what he feels has died.

    • It occurred to him that the texture of her skin would be quite different from what it had once been.
    • His flesh froze with horror at the thought of it.

    Listen for

    • Hears “the incredible weight of the thing”. A corpse is a “thing”. Is Julia becoming a thing to him, or is he becoming one to her?
    • Notices the Park’s few crocuses, which “pushed themselves up to be dismembered by the wind.” Why might these be the only flowers in the scene?
    • Weighs her one look, “full of contempt and dislike”. Winston wonders whether it comes “purely out of the past” or from his “bloated face”. A corpse does not look at anyone like that. What is still alive in her?
    • Keeps to the page: the chapter does not say what was done to Julia.

    If stuck

    • What does Winston notice about Julia’s body when he holds her?
    • What does it remind him of?
    • When someone you knew well feels like a stranger, is the change in them or in you?

    A strong answer A strong response says why the corpse is the picture that comes, and argues from the Park. One reader says it is true of her: she makes “no response whatever”, and the stiffness goes deeper than the scar. Another says it is true of him: he thinks her skin “would be quite different” before touching it, and the thought of lying with her fills him with horror. The best answers weigh the corpse as a “thing”, notice that her look of “contempt and dislike” is not a dead thing’s look, and do not say what was done to her.

  4. Julia could say it was only a trick, and that she did not really mean it. Instead she says, “At the time when it happens you do mean it.” Why won’t she take that excuse?Character

    What it asks It asks the student to explain Julia’s honesty. On two iron chairs, “‘I betrayed you,’ she said baldly.” He answers in the same words. Then she says that “they threaten you with something – something you can’t stand up to, can’t even think about”, and you say, do it to somebody else. “And perhaps you might pretend, afterwards, that it was only a trick and that you just said it to make them stop and didn’t really mean it. But that isn’t true. At the time when it happens you do mean it.” She goes on: “You want it to happen to the other person.” The student says why she will not take the easier story. It reaches toward the last question, since it asks what a person can still hold on to after a betrayal. The card must not say what exactly was done to her; she says only what “they threaten you with”.

    One reading

    Because the truth is the one thing still hers. She has lost nearly everything else, and lying to herself would be one more surrender. She says it “baldly”, with nothing softened. That bluntness is something of the old Julia, still working.

    • ‘I betrayed you,’ she said baldly.
    • But that isn’t true.

    Another reading

    Because it ends things. If it was only a trick, they could still love each other, and they would have to try. Saying “you do mean it” shuts that door for both of them. Her next words are the reason they are finished. The truth is how she says goodbye.

    • At the time when it happens you do mean it.
    • And after that, you don’t feel the same towards the other person any longer.

    Listen for

    • Notices that Winston adds nothing of his own: “‘All you care about is yourself,’ he echoed.” Does the echo mean he agrees, or that he has no words left?
    • Sets her words beside what Winston thinks later, alone in the café: “He had not merely said it, he had wished it.” Has she taught him this, or said what he already knew?
    • Weighs the parting. Both say “we must meet again”, and then he lets a knot of people come between them, “not altogether by accident.” Does the parting bear her out?
    • Keeps to the page: she says only what “they threaten you with”; the chapter does not say what was done to her.

    If stuck

    • What do Julia and Winston say to each other first?
    • What does Julia say people pretend afterwards?
    • Is it braver to admit you meant something terrible, or kinder to say you did not?

    A strong answer A strong response says why Julia refuses the easier story, and argues from her own words. One reader says the truth is the one thing still hers: lying to herself would be one more surrender, and she speaks “baldly”, as bluntly as ever. Another says the truth ends things: if it was only a trick they would still owe each other love, and “you do mean it” closes that door. The best answers weigh Winston’s echo, set her words beside “he had wished it”, notice how the parting bears her out, and do not say what was done to her.

  5. Right after Winston thinks about how he betrayed Julia, he hears a voice sing, “I sold you and you sold me”. But the page says it may be “only a memory” that sounds like singing. If the song is only in his head, who is singing it?Inference

    What it asks It asks the student to say where the song comes from, if it does not come from the telescreen. Winston has just thought, of what he said about Julia, “He had meant it. He had not merely said it, he had wished it. He had wished that she and not he should be delivered over to the –” The sentence breaks off. Then “Something changed in the music that trickled from the telescreen. A cracked and jeering note, a yellow note, came into it. And then – perhaps it was not happening, perhaps it was only a memory taking on the semblance of sound – a voice was singing”. The two lines follow. “The tears welled up in his eyes. A passing waiter noticed that his glass was empty and came back with the gin bottle.” The student says who is singing if the song is only in his head. It reaches toward the last question, since it asks what still speaks inside Winston. The card must not settle whether the song is really playing, and must not say what was done to Julia. It leaves the tears of the last paragraph to the last written question.

    One reading

    Winston himself. Some part of him has heard what he just admitted and will not let it pass. The song says the plain truth he could not finish saying: each sold the other. The note is “jeering”, and he is jeering at himself. The tears come at once, as if he agrees. Something in him still knows what he did, and still minds.

    • He had not merely said it, he had wished it.
    • The tears welled up in his eyes.

    Another reading

    The Party, from inside him. Julia once said they could not get inside you, and the chapter has already answered her. If the tune plays on in his head, the telescreen no longer needs to play it. Even his guilt now comes to him in their music, cracked and jeering. And what answers it is a waiter with the gin bottle.

    • But they could get inside you.
    • A cracked and jeering note, a yellow note, came into it.

    Listen for

    • Notices where the song comes in: just after “delivered over to the –”, a sentence Winston cannot finish. What does the song say that he could not?
    • Hears “a yellow note”. A note is a sound and yellow is a colour. Yellow can also mean cowardly. Which sense fits here, or do both?
    • Notices that he weeps in a café named for the song’s tree, and that the waiter answers the tears with more gin. Does the gin end the song, or keep it going?
    • Keeps to the page: the chapter does not settle whether the song is really playing, or say what was done to Julia. Leave the tears in the last paragraph for the last written question.

    If stuck

    • What words does the voice sing?
    • What does the page say the song might be, instead of real singing?
    • When a tune or a voice keeps playing in your head, where does it come from?

    A strong answer A strong response says who is singing if the song is only in Winston’s head, and argues from the lines around it. One reader says Winston himself: the song says what he could not finish saying, the note is “jeering”, and the tears come at once, so something in him still minds what he did. Another says the Party, from inside him: the chapter has already said “they could get inside you”, and now even his guilt comes in their tune, answered by more gin. The best answers weigh the broken sentence before the song and the “yellow note”, and do not settle whether the song is really playing.

Critical thinking

  1. In his happy daydream, Winston is back in the Ministry of Love. He confesses everything and names everybody. Yet his soul is “white as snow”. How can giving everybody away make him feel clean?

    What it asks It asks the student to explain how a dream of betrayal can feel like being washed clean. After the bulletin, “Winston, sitting in a blissful dream, paid no attention as his glass was filled up. He was not running or cheering any longer. He was back in the Ministry of Love, with everything forgiven, his soul white as snow. He was in the public dock, confessing everything, implicating everybody.” He walks down “the white-tiled corridor, with the feeling of walking in sunlight, and an armed guard at his back. The long-hoped-for bullet was entering his brain.” Earlier in the chapter, thinking of the one person he did betray, he admits, “He had not merely said it, he had wished it.” The student builds a thesis on how giving everybody away can feel clean, meets the strongest objection, and revises. The card must not say that Winston is shot: the bullet is part of the daydream in the café. It keeps to the novel’s own text, and leaves whether anything of the old Winston is left to the last written question.

    One reading

    Because there is nothing left to hide. All chapter Winston has been split: layers of feeling he cannot sort, “equivocation in his heart”, a sentence about Julia he cannot finish. To confess everything and name everybody is to hold no part of himself back. In the dream, clean means having no inside that differs from the outside.

    • He was in the public dock, confessing everything, implicating everybody.
    • He thought how ten minutes ago – yes, only ten minutes – there had still been equivocation in his heart as he wondered whether the news from the front would be of victory or defeat.

    Another reading

    Because it turns his one betrayal into nobody’s fault. Betraying Julia was his own act, and it burnt something out of him. If everybody is named, his guilt is no longer his alone; it is what everyone does, and all of it is forgiven. The cleanness is not innocence. It is forgiveness from the only power left to give it, which is why the dream goes back to the Ministry of Love.

    • There were things, your own acts, from which you could not recover.
    • He was back in the Ministry of Love, with everything forgiven, his soul white as snow.

    Listen for

    • Hears how white the dream is: “white as snow”, “the white-tiled corridor”, “walking in sunlight”. Sets it beside the white knight and “White always mates.” What has white come to mean for Winston?
    • Hears “everything forgiven”. Forgiven by whom, and for what? What he did against the Party and what he did to Julia are not the same wrong.
    • Hears the two cries in the last paragraph: “O cruel, needless misunderstanding! O stubborn, self-willed exile from the loving breast!” Whose language is this, and who in these lines needed forgiving?
    • Revises with the whole chapter in view, but leaves whether anything of the old Winston is left to the last written question. Keeps to the page: the bullet is part of the daydream, and the chapter does not show Winston shot.

    If stuck

    • Where is Winston in his daydream, and what is he doing there?
    • Whom has Winston already betrayed, and what does he admit about it?
    • Why can owning up feel good, even when it costs you?

    A strong answer A strong response states how giving everybody away can feel clean, meets the strongest objection, and revises. One thesis says there is nothing left to hide: confessing everything and naming everybody ends the split in him, so clean means no inside that differs from the outside. The strongest objection is that the cleanness is forgiveness, not innocence: his act against Julia is one of the acts “from which you could not recover”, and naming everybody makes his betrayal what everyone does, with “everything forgiven” by the power that asked for it. A good revision weighs how white the dream is, asks who forgives and for what, and does not say Winston is shot.

  2. A happy memory of his mother still comes to Winston, and he calls it false. Is anything of the old Winston left by the last line?

    What it asks It asks the student to judge whether anything of the old Winston is left by the last line. While he makes “a tentative move” on the chessboard, “Uncalled, a memory floated into his mind.” A candlelit room; himself, nine or ten, “shaking a dice-box and laughing excitedly. His mother was sitting opposite him and also laughing.” It was a rainy afternoon about a month before she disappeared. He had whined for food, and she went out and came back with “an outfit of Snakes and Ladders”, a “miserable outfit”. They “played eight games, winning four each”, and his little sister laughed “because the others were laughing.” “For a whole afternoon they had all been happy together, as in his earlier childhood.” Then: “He pushed the picture out of his mind. It was a false memory.” Minutes later comes the trumpet, “the final, indispensable, healing change”, and the last paragraph: “Two gin-scented tears”, then “He had won the victory over himself. He loved Big Brother.” The student builds a thesis, meets the strongest objection, and revises. The card must not say whether the memory is true or false; the chapter shows only Winston calling it false. It keeps to the novel’s text, and does not judge whether Winston should have been braver.

    One reading

    Yes, something is left. The memory comes “Uncalled”: Winston does not summon it, yet something in him has kept it, down to the smell of the cardboard and the score of the games. He has to push it out, and you only push against what pushes back. Even at the very end, he weeps.

    • Uncalled, a memory floated into his mind.
    • He could still remember the smell of the damp cardboard.

    Another reading

    No, or nothing that is still his. The memory survives, but Winston does not stand with it. He calls it false and turns back to the chessboard. The “healing change” comes after, and the last lines say the fight is over and won “over himself”. If the self that loved his mother is what was beaten, what is left is a memory with no one to keep it.

    • He pushed the picture out of his mind. It was a false memory.
    • He had won the victory over himself.

    Listen for

    • Hears “They did not matter so long as one knew them for what they were.” If false memories do not matter, why does this one need pushing away?
    • Hears the “But” after the tears: “But it was all right, everything was all right”. Why would tears of joy need a “But”?
    • Sets the mother beside the face. She says, “Now be good, and I’ll buy you a toy”; the last paragraph mourns an “exile from the loving breast”. Whose love is that line borrowing?
    • Keeps to the page: the chapter shows only Winston calling the memory false, not whether it is. The question is what is left, not whether he should have been braver.

    If stuck

    • What memory comes to Winston, and what does he do with it?
    • What happens at the café just after he pushes it away?
    • If you push a memory away, is it still yours?

    A strong answer A strong response states whether anything of the old Winston is left by the last line, meets the strongest objection, and revises. One thesis says yes: the memory comes “Uncalled”, kept in detail down to the damp cardboard, and he has to push against it, and he still weeps at the end. The strongest objection is that the memory survives but Winston does not stand with it: he calls it false, the “healing change” follows, and the last lines say he has won “over himself”. A good revision weighs why a memory that does not matter must be pushed away, hears the “But” after the tears, and does not say whether the memory is true.

Vocabulary definitions

cauterised
Something was killed in your breast: burnt out, cauterised out. Burnt on purpose to seal a wound or destroy damaged flesh, as a doctor might (Greek kauterion, a branding iron). It is a word from healing. Here what is burnt out is “Something” in Winston that the sentence does not name.
convulsive
Under the table Winston’s feet made convulsive movements. Jerking suddenly, without being willed, as in a fit (Latin convellere, to tear loose). Winston has not moved from his seat; his feet move on their own.
bestrode
The colossus that bestrode the world! Stood over something with one leg on each side, like a giant (the past tense of bestride). A colossus is a huge statue; the line pictures Big Brother standing astride the whole world.
undifferentiated
A violent emotion, not fear exactly but a sort of undifferentiated excitement, flared up in him, then faded again. Not sorted into separate kinds, so the parts cannot be told apart (un-, not, and differentiate, to tell apart). Winston feels “not fear exactly”, and cannot say what the excitement is.
inextricably
The cloves and saccharine, themselves disgusting enough in their sickly way, could not disguise the flat oily smell; and what was worst of all was that the smell of gin, which dwelt with him night and day, was inextricably mixed up in his mind with the smell of those – So tangled together that they cannot be pulled apart (Latin in-, not, and extricare, to untangle). The smell of gin is bound up in his mind with something he will not name, even to himself.
sinecure
He even had a job, a sinecure, more highly paid than his old job had been. A paid post with little or no real work in it (Latin sine cura, without care). Winston’s pays better than his old job, and his committee’s task is a question about commas and brackets.
1984, George Orwell. Signet Classics paperback, ISBN 9780451524935.